I decided I wanted to get rid of the previous journal from January. Ahaha...

I'm wanting to get a life of some sort. I don't know. Sitting in my basement all the time is getting really boring... I used to find so much enjoyment in finding random pictures on the internet, but there's freaking reposts everywhere and it just dampens the entire activity. My friends on facebook are never on when I am and kind of goes the same with this place. I went a couple days with hardly even being on the computer and there was hardly anything, and what was there I could totally live without. But I'll probably never break the habit of always wanting to be on the computer. I still make art on the computer and enjoy sharing it. And there's also always some Sims to play.

I hardly ever watch FMA on Saturday evenings anymore. I've watched all the episodes... I'll watch it sometimes, but it's not a weekly thing anymore. This is probably because I'm thinking about people in real life and wanting to interact with them in real life. Anime is pretty much just a gateway to ignore my real life. Believe it or not, I've found that actual people can be a hell of a lot more interesting than some anime. Actually, I was never really THAT into anime to begin with. I was basically only into FMA. And now that that's faded, I've found other things to be interested in. I'd much rather be hanging out with people than watch anime.

I've also found that I find it extremely irritating to play video games by myself. I always have the need to be talking to SOMEONE when I'm playing. I have to play XBox while talking to someone on LIVE unless I'm playing Assassin's Creed. When I play Sonic, I want my brother to at least be in the room. I like talking to my brother about Sonic and junk. But if he's not available, I try to call someone on the phone.

I also can't stand to watch a ton of TV. The only time I can ever watch three hours of television is on Sunday night which is when Once Upon A Time, Desperate Housewives, and GCB is on. But I only remember to watch those shows because my mom watches them. And even by the end of three hours, I just want to do something else. Even when I'm watching a DVD of a series I'm interested in, I can't watch more than one disc. I HAVE to go do something else. I can draw for three straight hours and won't get sick of it, but I can't do the same with television. And this isn't because I'm a kid and have a short attention span. I used to watch LOADS of television when I was younger and could watch for hours at a time.

I guess this is just a desperate cry to be with people. I'm sick of sitting around my house by myself with facebook chat as my only saving grace. I want to go to people's houses. I want to hang out with my friends on the weekends. Sometimes I don't want to leave school because I want to be with my friends.
This also coincides with how I miss marching season. I was actually with people and I wasn't always sitting around my house. I was out on Friday nights. Sure, I was at competitions and football games, but I was with PEOPLE. God, I love people. I love being with people.

All I really want is to be with my friends. Or nab someone who catches my fancy and spend a Saturday night with them. I don't understand how I've lived so long sitting in my stupid basement. I've grown sick of it.